Wednesday, February 11, 2015

Day 11 - Thaddaeus Rancourt

I am accustomed to parenting girls.
Sundresses, hair bows, wiggly pants, tea parties,
princesses, baby dolls, nail polish, lip gloss...
did I mention hair bows?

I honestly never envisioned myself with a son.
Until, this little man absolutely captured my heart...

Very similar to our Lily Grace who is also adopted from China, hundreds of families turned down Thaddaeus' file because of the scary terminal diagnosis that came attached with each cardiologist's review.  Even though Thadd's file was designated to a very large adoption agency, none of their families chose to proceed with his adoption.  His file disappeared, until an advocate friend of mine found him on another agency's designated list.

After Thadd's file had been found, Jacques and I had a prayerful decision to make.  At the time, Lily had been turned down by three medical centers to be listed for a heart transplant, and she was dying.  I was currently living in the Cardiac Intensive Care Unit with Lily going on four months, and her future was extremely uncertain.  Our plate was already full and often times overflowing with the responsibility of just trying to keep Lily Grace alive.  We could have easily decided that bringing another critically ill child into our home was crazy, and I think that most of you would have agreed.  But three years ago, when Jacques and I started down the journey of adoption, we decided that we wanted to live reckless for Jesus.  We chose to put our comfort, security, and financial stability on the link and risk everything to give God the opportunity to show up.  And let me tell you friends, not only did He show up, but He has blessed us abundantly in ways that we never dreamed possible.  Jacques and I are at a place right now where we have to rely on God for everything.  Even our day-to-day living is impossible without Him.  In adopting these children, we have taken on WAY more than we can handle alone.

But His grace is sufficient,
and His power is made perfect in our weakness!  

Our little dude turns "3" years old today.  He has a combination of heart defects that are very familiar to Jacques and I.  Thaddaeus has a single ventricle heart just like Lily Grace had before her heart transplant, and a complete AV canal, which is the same heart defect our Addy Hope had before she passed away in my womb at 39 weeks gestation.  Unlike Lily, Thadd has not had any heart surgeries in China.  As a matter of fact, China deemed him inoperable.  It's hard to tell from the darling, smiling photos but Thadd fights for his life with every breath he takes.  His oxygen saturation is in the 60's resting, and he is very short of breath most of the time.  

Lily's cardiology team at the National Children's Medical Center in Washington DC has been treating Thaddaeus since we brought him home from China in November.  Thadd's heart catheterization did not bring us the news that we had hoped for, and his team is split on whether or not he could survive surgery.  We have also been told that if we proceed with his BT Shunt open heart surgery, that it will only be palliative in order to help him feel better in the short term.  One thing we have learned along our family's journey is that we must always choose HOPE.  God is the author of our story, and to Him we give all of the glory... even when things do not go the way we have planned.  We promised China that we would bring Thaddaeus home, and love him for as long as God allows his little broken heart to beat... and we intend to do just that! 

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you,
for my power is made perfect in weakness."
Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses,
so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses,
insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities.
for when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10


Andrea O. said...

As always, I love reading about your precious family!

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